move on

what was i thinking?
to trust you,
the person i once hated
with every being of my soul.

we called a truce
and became lovers.
made vows of honesty and loyalty
but kept the status as friends

we shared secrets
no one else knew.
brought out things in each other
no on was able to before.

all my time spent trusting you
being there for you.
caring for you.
helping you in your times of need

all your time spent playing me.
lying to me.
using me,
like it turned you on.

hurt and foolish was what i felt
when the light was shone.
How could i have been so stupid?
but Livid and vindictive was my game

invisible and faulsely apologetic
was yours.
still spitting lies
till your deepest secret was out

then u spoke no more
hiding from the world
upset with me
for hurting u as pay back

forgiving u was not on my agenda
but years had past
the memories have all faded
and i have let it go

you are still not able to forive and try to forget.
holding on to my pay back for dear life.
i hope that one day
you will be able to let it go.